Lately I've felt uninspired.
Not sure what it is, but between the S.A.D. and trying to figure out some key parts in my life, I feel like I'm missing something to be passionate about.
What do I want to do for the rest of my life? What sorts of projects do I want to devote my time to? What can I jump head-first into?
These are the kinds of questions that run through my mind over and over and over again. I'm not sure where to go or where to look. The only person with the answers is me, but I haven't found them yet.
Over the past couple of years I have discovered my love for new things, like cooking, yoga and learning about physical and mental health. I find that I don't give myself enough time to do these things I love, and when I get to do it, I feel rushed.
Life is busy. Working all day means getting home at 6, only to be in bed 4 hours later. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for a job, but life lately seems off balance. The hours fly by and I don't even know how. The weekends come and go, and I don't even remember what I did with myself.
All I know is that I won't stop searching until I find it. That balance - that "it". Whatever it may be.
On a somewhat related note, I'm glad to be blogging again. Even if no one else reads my nonsense, at least I have an outlet where I can explore my thoughts, put them into writing, and make sense of them. I now realize how much I missed this...
Beautiful girl! I'm not sure if my comments are getting through to you, but I love that you are blogging again. It is so nice to see little bits of your life and hear your voice again (I can hear it when I read your words...:P)... I know we've talked about this, but I feel like I am in a similar place. I have made time to focus on things I need to, but I still almost feel like my work days are wasted. Like I am not living up to my potential and doing something I am truly excited about. Maybe its this whole mid-twenties thing - we just have to keep working on it until we are on the other side?? I hear 30 is very enlightening... :)
ReplyDeleteI'm getting your comments! But I completely agree. I feel like maybe it's a phase? Or maybe it's just settling in for the long haul. As depressing as that sounds.... It's a tough transition into adulthood. No one is there to guide you anymore- it's all on us now!
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